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| This world seems to be caught up in the Facebook / MySpace/Xanga/whatever craze. It seems only fitting that I at least attempt to reconnect some of the severed connections with friends and companions from long ago.
So much has changed. That is life, I suppose, but as I look back over my life these past years, i realize how true this is. Friends my age are finishing college, looking for work, testing the waters of the "real world", or at least supporting a healthy social life.
However, I have strayed as far from that as possible. I am married, now for nearly 1.5 years. I am a salaried manager of a one hundred million dollar business. I work 12-14 hours per day, and have 2 friends that I actually socialize with, once a month or so.
Do I regret the way my life has gone? No.
Is anyone actually out there, or am I the pathetic actor, performing a monologue for an empty theatre? No matter. This space shall be my soapbox, my journal, my venue for the random thoughts that plague my mind. | | |
| greetings to all who actually have so little to do that you read this.
first, i miss you all. well, most of you =)
second, i shall be at houghton for homecoming. with...that brings me to my third item.
I AM ENGAGED TO BETHANY!!!!!!!!!
yes, this is for real. i am honestly, tuely engaged. for
those who dont believe, there is a certain ring i should have you see.
our tenative date in june 10th, 2006. i ask for your prayers in this.
farewll, friends.
nate
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| PS: new email: stillseeking14@yahoo.com
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| greetings my friends.
my apologies about the last post. i was rather depressed...as i am sure you could tell. it was a bad night.
anyway, life is porgressing here. i am in the process of
searching for a place to live, i have a job and i am searching for a
car. that, in a nutshell is my life. well, almost. i
also am in love with a beautiful woman who, for some reason which shall
forever be a mystery to me, loves me as well. that brightens my
otherwise bland and dank life immensly.
i jsut spent a wonderful few days with said woman, at her family's
cottage on lake ontario. it was an amazing place with fantastic
people. it was one of, if not the, best vacations i have ever had
the pleasure of going on.
I HATE SWEAT BEES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well, that is all i have to say. bye.
~mirror, mirror on the wall, who's the biggest oaf of all?~
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| today, i am forced to sit idly by while someone i know is
hurting. i am left feeling helpless, useless. i am also
haunted by the realization that this person's pain is my fault.
concern over one you care about and guilt have a funny way of imploding
your soul. now, i see that i have done this to two people i care
about. things are getting more painful for them, and the guilt
ravages me. i am at a loss; what do i do? i can do nothing;
nothing but pray. however, even as i speak, i hear the words echo
hollow in my ears, the pitiful and unworthy attempt to right what i
have done. i know God can make things right, i also know that
right now, i feel quite ashamed to come before him in prayer.
and so, life drags on. i am a construction worker now. i
build things for people to enjoy, thus in some small way making the
lives of others better. yet i cannot escape the conclusion that
while i can help those who mean very little to me, the closer i am to
someone, the less i can do for them.
i cannot even help myself. if things progress the way they are,
this fall, instead of attending a school with some of the best people i
have ever met, i will be living on a starvation diet, trying to live
from one paycheck to the next, praying that my boss gives me a raise.
i need the Lord. he alone can restore peace to my churning
soul. my brothers and sisters, i exhort you too to turn to
Christ, as He is the only one who can save us, in this life and the
next.
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